Visionary!
Not.

I ordered a few Slytherin shirts and one with Hermione on it. Hermione! Guh. Suchadork I am. So...err. I need to vent, as the tag says.

Do you know what the hardest part about writing is? Sitting down and starting. Or at least for me, it is. Once I start I'm likely to not stop until the chapter is done and/or I fall asleep while writing with my laptop in my lap while I'm in bed. The current song I'm listening to [you should listen to it too] will be the basis for the sequel to Vertigo. Yeah. I'll get to the trilogy business now then continue to vent and boo hoo about writing it -

The sequel is the 'recovery' transition period that I need Fleur and Hermione to have. My favorite OC will be making an apperance in the next two stories, and I've no further plans for major OCs...just one. Said OC will be playing a very important role for Hermione and Fleur, so be on the lookout. Their role is in compliance with what I just described the sequel to be, so. Also, I really don't want to compare this, or the series at all, to CC. If you must know, I think my quality of writing has improved vastly from the first, say, third of CC. Don't try to compare and contrast my writing from now on with CC...it just won't do any good, as easy and fun as it is to do. It's a delicate bit of pressure I put on myself when I even think that I have a goal to accomplish by blowing you all away more this time around than how I did with CC. So just...try not to C/C with CC kthnx. I will be flexing my sexiness and sassiness fingers with this story, let me tell you... I'll let you stick that in between your legs and suck on it for a while. Bahahah.

The final string in the trilogy will be Cre.A.Tive. E.Mo.Tive. That's right! Yea. Uhm. The first chapter will be...interesting. I can't comment on anything else because I'll be spoiling the surprise, but I suppose I'll just say Kingdom Hearts. lol. Even then, that's just scratching the surface. 'Seeds' is a more adequate hint lol.

And back to writing...yes, yes... Woe is me, such an esteemed [hopefully!] fanfic author. But really, I do write for myself more than anything. It sounds selfish, but you'll go down a scary road writing for the reviews no matter how many you get. 700+ reviews for a seventeen-chaptered story is remarkable, 'specially for femslash. Even still, I don't write and expect every single of the thousand or so people who read my stories to review. It's reckless and unimaginable, even, to think that they would. I have a solid network of about ~40 people who I can always count on to review, and that's very comforting.

Hmm. What else..? Well, it's kind of hard to string ephemeral ideas and thoughts into concrete words. It's like trying to catch smoke and meld it into oil in your hands to paint with. And then...the more people that read your work, the more people that incinerate your work and spark wildfires of more motivation inside of you, the more you'll want to keep doing the impossible until it seems possible and second-nature to you. But there are only so many things, so many...neurons [?] that can burn around us and turn into smoke, given that they're adequate ideas. Sometimes the smoke will cloud you, sometimes the oil will overpower you, sometimes your hands will be too soiled by the oil for there to be any room for new oil...it'll harden. I'm still chipping off the bits of CC, but some of it will never go away. The bits that don't have started to meld with my hand, burying into my skin, my veins, and flowing to my heart to stay. Some keep circulating, but most stay in that one place.

So how am I to surpass what's been engrained in the end product of my work? I don't know what my work will end up as until it's finished, meaning I don't know if I will truly surpass it. So...that's also a big qualm I have with comparisons to CC. I know it's all good and fun but those 'bits' of CC are very fragile. I think they break a little when I even think of kicking them out by moving on to bigger and better things.

Enough with the allegories... I need to nap. Yeah it's 5 in the afternoon and the sun is still out, barely melting the snow, but I've just been very tired and emotional lately. Perhaps this song has something to do with it. Perhaps not. Though I notice that I seem to enjoy isolating myself from people who get too close to me. But one sting from them, no matter what the source, I'll bury myself away from them. Mmm...interesting.

Buenas tardes.

All done!! :D

( the only one she ever feared pt. 3 )

Hey! So I know I never post on LJ before fanfic dot net, but the servers are down or something and the login areas are 'temporarily inaccessible'... Whatever. So this story is finished. Here's part one because I can only hide so much behind a cut. Please note that this is a RAW first draft. If you find any mistakes, just giggle at them (or not) and kindly move on. I will post a more polished version on fanfic once I wake up and finish editing, given that the glitch in the login area is taken care of. Here's a general outline of things before the final update -

Hermione/Fleur; 7th Yr. AU – A flower's appeal is in its contradictions - so delicate in form yet strong in fragrance, so small in size yet big in beauty, so short in life yet long on effect. Hermione learns, loves; she thrives on this. Fleur entertains. ( the only one she ever feared pt. 1 )

I -am- writing chapter 17 right now! Nonstop! Have mercy, people.
and yes, a sequel will be written...

I'm going to eat dinner in some minutes but I figured I'd post something at least relatively insightful or...not. I really don't want to be a drag, but I reckon that writing the final chapter is going to be a big kick up my ass right now. I've started writing it and everything, but I'm having some second thoughts about the ending I have in mind that will steamroll the sequel. It will be THE only Final Fantasy reference in the whole story, and I know some have been wondering where the FF tidbits are at in Vertigo. Yeah I get that maybe about a third of my readers play FF but I just nodded and grinned to myself with the decision to have a major reference at the end.

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Okay.

People really seem to enjoy chapter 14 of Vertigo. 5, 7, 14, and 16 reads are up, up, UP! I wonder why lol. People are rereading these chapters more than others while they [im]patiently wait for me to update. This is just me going on and on about things, reflecting before I get to work on the sequel btw. So I'll do that.

I have nearly 40 pages on Word, outlining things I wanted to have happen in the story. I spent like a weekish working on it while I was finishing CC. I think maybe five pages are relevant to what I did end up using lol. The rest was made up on the go because my skills are just THAT awesome >_>... Yeah right. But no, feedback does help a lot to help me change/make up my mind about things. I do have a secret that makes people tick and be like 'I never know what to expect in your stories'... Mind you, this is something I like doing to people. I don't really want to expose my secret, though. I'll just make you squirm about it.

Do I think Vertigo compares to or even surpasses CC? No to both. Hell no to both, actually. They're two completely different stories. Like someone thoughtfully pointed out to me in a review, CC had more of a 'I'm making this up as I go but it's still coherent' thing going on, while with Vertigo I tend to have more solid ideas for things. I have changed things drastically in terms of storyline with Vertigo in regards to what I'd planned, but the beginning and end were the same through and through. I laughed to myself while writing up to about chapter 13 of this story, since I was sure that most thought that it was just one of those friendship --> romance stories. Nope, nope, and nope lol.

I do have quite a few CC references sprinkled throughout, the biggest and most obvious one being the second half of chapter 14. The titles are the same and they both involve literal chasing of the other, something that I strangely enjoy writing about. I used to like to sprint a lot, if that's any indication of why I employ the use of motion to embellish on the heat of the moment. Due to asthma, that hobby of mine had to come to a close. Anyway, I use CC references just to make my regular readers smile reminiscently every now and then, to keep them interested, and as something my regular reviewers can point out in their reviews.

As for the sequel...I already know what I'm going to title it and when/where it'll take place. My 'Paris' will be a big part of the story, but I have one qualm about it. I really don't like having to use a plethora of OCs, as I had to do with CC because it's a postDH story. With postHogwarts stories, there comes the unfortunate graduation away from most of the characters that we're familiar with, causing me to have to make up my own. I'll probably have to end up doing this again with the sequel, but I will keep the usual suspects around except for Ginny and Luna until they finish school. A lot of people have told me that they like my characterisation of Luna, so I'll have to have her make an appearance.   Hahaha disregard that~

Now here's a big hint to you numerology lovers -

The number four is important.
Seventeen is my favourite number.
Thirteen is seventeen minus four.

lol so yes. Did you notice that my line breaks in Vertigo are always four asterisks, unless there's a line break between flashbacks? Well yeah. That's all I'm saying. I need to go eat dinner, then do...something...

Peace out.